I sit here at my computer, it is a Sunday evening at 9pm and it is dark outside. Really dark, like you know summer is coming to an end. We really have not had much of a summer this year, the weather has been really crappy and when it was nice it would be hot during the day and cold in the evening. Never once was there a night when you wanted to sit out and chat with friends. Anytime we tried we were dressed like it was winter and drinking tea instead of martini's! I can remember one night a month ago when I decided to go an unpack my Uggs from their box and put them on. Yes I had always said that I would not wear them in the summer, that I thought that was foolish. But when it is down right cold out my feet wanted warmth. And since I was practically wearing a winter jacket I felt that it only made sense to wear my warm boots too.
I reflect on this summer and wonder where it went. I am sure any of my readers who are still around have wondered where I went! Yes I know I am slacking... but in my defense I have been so overly busy that I don't think I had any real downtime this summer to just kick back and relax. Probably my own fault as I have become a self proclaimed workaholic. I realized this when my husband and I were driving back from my mom's place after picking up the kids. She lives 3 hours north in a beautiful place called cottage country. She was a great "Hamma" as my kids call her and took the kids for 5 days to enjoy the lake. After about an hour in the car I looked at my husband and told him that I could not stop thinking about how I could be working while we were driving and that was a good 4 hours of work time that I will never get back. Yes folks I think I need a 2 step program for this.
My husband and I went away for a few days to Chicago to enjoy the beautiful city and see Pearl Jam in concert. I brought my laptop with me so I could work in my spare time, you know the hour on the plane, the waiting at the airport, and the hour or so early in the morning when my husband is still sleeping because guess what - I can no longer sleep in. Even if I stay awake until 3am which we did for 3 nights straight I can't sleep in. Oh how I wish I could, sleep and me are best friends and I really need it, a good solid 8 hours of it. I am not cut out for the party life anymore. I am old... and okay with it...
So back to my summer. I hired a mothers helper to come and take care of my kids while I worked. I wanted them to be able to have fun and I wanted to be able to work. Well it was a good thing I did because this summer has been soooo busy. Not the normal couple orders here and there so I can enjoy the warm weather. I have had to work each and every day, and evening and play catch up most weekends. I realized I work a lot when I overheard my son tell Kalina, our helper that all his mommy does is work. I tried to force myself to step back more and spend quality time with them instead of looking at my Blackberry or bringing my laptop outside with me. There were some weekends where I didn't even turn on my computer! That is the way it is supposed to be, and that is the way it will be now. My kids are growing up so fast, my son turned 5 a week ago. The baby that helped me start Grace Announcements. And my youngest, the baby is not a baby anymore, she is 2.5. I don't want to miss them grow up because I was too busy working.
I did have some fun though. I can remember many days or nights with friends, enjoying the poor excuse for a summer we had. We didn't care, we all sat and ate and drank and had fun. I think my kids had fun too, because most days they didn't want to leave the house and their friends to go anywhere. We still don't have fences so it is like one big huge playground in our backyard. We have play structure, another has a trampoline, a few with small pools or sprinklers for those few hot days, and lots of kids to play with - who would want to leave that? I can even laugh now about the time I got on the trampoline and bounced a few kids, I thought I was having a heart attack, but after eating a few Tums my girlfriend gave me I learned it was just indigestion! Then there were the cart wheels, oh how I hurt my groin doing that. It is okay because my other girlfriend did too, in the exact same spot!! We were just talking about those tonight, and how we are going to try to perfect them.
So in all the work and crazy partying you can see why I have not been on here posting. I promise now that the summer is over, my son goes to school full time in 2 days, and it is back to schedules and more work I will try my best to post regularly again. Heck I could post every day for the next couple of months just to catch up on all my summer stories and adventures. Maybe I will, or maybe I will just do as I always do. Blog about all the craziness that is my life! Enjoy the last day or your summer break :)
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